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March 12, 2007

Most of of you are aware of the difficult time my family and I are going through.  My sister's passing at age 50 was nothing on our radar screen.  She had beat the Hodgkin's Lymphoma and was planning a trip home to Boston this past month when, for reasons undefined and residing only in the mysteries of life, she suffered pulmonary distress; died.  Beyond belief. 

I have walked through death and grief with families, been through other loss and death in my own,  brushed against the specter of darkness in my own times of illness, but nothing like this. 

Strange.  Some expect anger at God, but I don't have any.   Some expect expect blame, but I don't look for it.  Others expect lengthy medical explanation, but I'm not looking for any.  What is, is. 

I think grief is as much a process of learning to accept what is for what it is, as it is moving through the pain of having your heart ripped out. 

All I can say is that if I didn't have a really real connection with Jesus as Lord, Son of the Living God, the Author of salvation, the Prince of Peace, I would go nuts.  I would like to know how anyone can survive this world without Jesus.  In times such as these, it is as foreign to my being as was the thought of losing my sister at her early age. 

Join me in worship, if you will, and together maybe we can find strength in the awesome, albeit rough, journey.

Updated: 09/29/08